My last weekend in the amazing grace land of the united states. General feelings vary from extreme excitement to near breakdowns. I said good-bye-for-now (I am vehemently opposed to good-bye’s) to a close friend of mine last night. It hadn’t really all hit me quite yet until that moment. I have 4 unpacked suitcases lying empty in my apartment, waiting for me to accept the reality that I am leaving in 5 days, and in order to do so I must pack and say my good-bye-for-nows. I suppose in hindsight, going back to California before leaving for Cambodia would have made this 100 times more difficult, so I am 51% glad I was not able to. Although I secretly wondered if I would have a sappy box office hit moment at the airport where someone ran in and exclaimed “Shabnam don’t go! Please stay. For me…”
Sadly in my version I still go. But it would still be nice to hear it?
Moving on. Honestly, I feel bad saying it when people ask if I’m sad to go, but I am truly very excited about it. I can’t stop thinking about what an adventure this is going to be! I know it will be hard, but I believe that everything that is worthwhile in life must come with hardships.
I cross my fingers that my travels and experiences till date have prepared me for this. If not, I can only learn more! I feel like Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz.
I’m off to see the wizard! The wonderful wizard of Phnom Penh…